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It has been a while since I updated. LOADS has happened but lets just start today first.
The library was giving out free books and BOY, was I excited. I dropped my bag and books and sped towards the rows of tables containing rows and rows of books just waiting for me to take it home. As I run my hand along the binding of the books, I get a jolt of excitement and joy. I thought to myself, wow, am I even supposed to be THIS excited? There's just something mysterious about books. The cover and binding holds an endless world of possibilities and knowledge just waiting for me to explore its contents. There were so many to choose from, and I wanted to take them all home with me. Soon both my arms were full and people were giving me ridiculous looks. I had to sort through them, leaving some behind reluctantly. It was difficult and eventually before I left the library, I went back to the tables and got the ones I previously left behind haha.
I finally moved out of that hostile place. What a liberating feeling. I'm very thankful for everything He has blessed me with. My new room is AMAZING..of course thanks to my interior designer sister for her plan and layout :). She really IS the best <3
I had a long talk with Chi Uyen yesterday. It was amazing as always.
Older sisters are just so amazing aren't they?
I know mine are.
Always,
MJ Wynn
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Hi world :)
What can I say? what a rough semester it has been so far (for those who know me well, knows exactly what has happened) but I am determine to be as happy as ever. I refuse to let ANYTHING pull me down and I refuse to fall even if the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I have the BEST support system ever: people that refuse to let me fall and are always there to hold my hand when times are rough. I know I am NOT invincible but I will be strong. If I let all the negative things get to me, it would consume me and that is exactly the desire of those who want to hurt me. They want to break me down, see me cry, and wait for me to fall hard. I refuse to let them have that satisfaction. The best way to defend myself is to be happy: nothing makes a person who wants to hurt you more piss off then to see that you're still happy even when he/she tried everything to pull you down and hurt you. My smile is my defense and I will continue to smile because I have nothing to be sad about. This semester has taught me soooo much. It is a lesson that I had to learn: to be independent, strong, and efficient on my own. It is my life and no one can live my life for me. They can only be there to lend a shoulder, a hand, and give me a hug (and I appreciate all who do), but I realized that in the end, how I feel about myself and my decisions in life depend on only one person, MYSELF. If I have a positive outlook then life will be positive.
I thank all who believe in me. It is because you believe in me, that I have come to beleive in myself and my capabilities. I love you all <3
fighting!
<3 Wynn
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credits: nunoramos0 at deviantart
I admit, I'm not the most generous person in the world like some people I know but is it wrong to only want to share things with people you care about? I LOVE to share things with my family and friends, you know, the people that actually deserve and appreciate it. Why do I have to share my things with people who make me feel unhappy, unworthy, and under appreciated? Apparently, some people wonder why I like to have things for myself. Yes, I do admit that I am selfish sometimes (part of being the youngest mentality) but I've been fighting that selfishness since the first time I realized I was spoiled. Secondly, I'm kind of OCD about having my belongings in a certain area but people think that I'm separating my things from theirs because I don't like them but in reality, I'm just unfortunately OCD about it. Thirdly, is it wrong to just flat out truthfully say, I don't like you? that's why I don't want to share my things with you? Or something along a meaner line of truthfully, you don't appreciate it so why should I be nice to you when you've treated me as anything BUT a friend. It's true, nice people do get trampled over. I've learned that people who don't appreciate you the first time, will NEVER come to appreciate you no matter how much you try. I also learned that the world is a harsh place to live. You really do have to choose your friends carefully- keep those who love you close and leave those who brings you down. Friends are supposed to make your life more beautiful and worthwhile. So anyways, this post is a toast to all healthy and long-lived friendship. I'm just glad to have found mine: my sisters, MMM, PB and J, and ATM <3
with love,
Wynn
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School started today. I really don't know how I feel about it yet. Something just feel off but I don't know what it is. I hate when I don't know and especially hate it more when I feel like I don't have complete control over my life. When I don't have control, I feel unsteady and hesitant and I hate that feeling. I want to be my old GO GETTER self again. Anyways, class today was fun (esp. my two government class!) and I'm already at the library "studying" and doing homework. I like to feel busy even though it's only the beginning of the school year, and I know that I have PLENTY of time to feel busy. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE cooking for myself; it's a very pleasant and calming experience. Hopefully this school year picks up and I will be more sure of everything because right now, it's frustrating that I don't feel like everything is how it is supposed to be...you know? that "right" feeling.
anywhoos,
FIGHTING!
<3 MJ
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credits: deviantart
Happy Birthday Daddy! Today I baked up some cupcakes, brought him a birthday balloon, B-day card, PJ pants, and a belt. Chi Uyen brought him his favorite snacks (peppered beef jerky and halls vitamin C drops-random I know lol) and we all sang Happy Birthday to him. We're going to celebrate it on Friday and go out to dinner as a family (except we're missing Chi Hai but that's okay because I'm super excited to see her for Christmas!).
Credits: deviantart
Speaking of Christmas, I cannot wait for it to come. I get super excited when I hear Christmas music on 96.1 and yes, I'm the type of person that never get sick of Christmas songs! I usually start listening to holiday music in OCTOBER lol even before Thanksgiving. Lame, I know but whatever.
So I have a bazillion songs and a million albums to listen to before I can add them to my Itunes. I think I have an addiction problem. I can never have enough music. Even when I have hundreds of songs just waiting to be sorted through, I'm still constantly adding more to the already long list. I need serious help.
(I miss my GFs...)
So far, this week has been awesome. I've never had this much fun. It makes sense that my last week before school is the most fun I've had this summer besides the time when my GFs came up here to visit. Everyone around me is so busy! It feels weird to still have nothing to do haha. Of course, by the time I start school, I would be JUST as busy...if not more. It's going to be an interesting year to say the least.
<3 MJ Wynn
cupcakes! yummmm.
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Please do call me Minnie